Pagan in Post-Christiantiy : Autoethnography: Autoethnography

By Cole, Edward, Russell, Ph.D.

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Title:	Pagan in Post-Christiantiy : Autoethnography: Autoethnography
Author:	Cole, Edward, Russell, Ph.D.
Volume:
Language:	English
Subject:	Non Fiction, Psychology, autoethnography, psychosis
Collections:	Authors Community, Sociology
Historic Publication Date:	2025
Publisher:	self published

Member Page:	edward cole
Citation APA MLA Chicago Russell Cole, P. E. (2025). Pagan in Post-Christiantiy : Autoethnography. Retrieved from http://gutenberg.cc/

Description
It chronocles my experiences when exhibiting the symptoms of psychosis. The desriptions coalesce into a larger story that provides insights into my condition during the period of time when I was convinced that I was being used to model mental illness or a personality disorder.

Summary
i provide autoethnographical descriptions of experiences I had while psychotic. i relate the accounts to theoretical points made in sociological literature.

Excerpt
When first experiencing the prodromal symptoms of psychosis, I was under the impression that I was the subject of an experiment. The project was being conducted by a wealthy family who intended to improve my lifestyle. However, I soon concluded that those behind the intervention didn’t plan to help me. Instead, their pretense of aiding was a ploy to conceal ulterior motives. The intervention into my life was intended to bring about my demise. It was a drawnout operation that restricted the methods it used so that the project didn’t risk identification as the direct cause of my death. It relied on techniques for inflicting harm, such as inducting hypnosis and hypnotizing me to inadvertently injure myself. It strived to make me appear self-destructive, leaving in its aftermath only signs of my self-inflicted trauma. I resisted hypnosis for the first year of my psychotic episode by adhering to a strategy for self-preservation that was entirely defensively. Because of the peculiar, disembodied relationship that I had with my attackers; I couldn’t retaliate without risking greater damage to my wellbeing.

Table of Contents
Table of Contents 2 Preface 8 Introduction 13 Ontology 15 Chapter I 17 Psychiatry 17 Madness 21 Chapter II 35 Prodromal 35 Marge 39 Know thyself 43 Encroachment 45 Figures and Backdrops 46 Social Authorities 47 Severing Ties 51 Paranoia 53 Erratic behavior 54 Chapter III 55 Trip Wire 55 Interpersonal Relationships 57 Token Appearances 58 Mania 59 Breadcrumbs 61 Interviews 62 PTSD 64 Purification Ritual 68 Personality Composite 68 Hannibal 69 Winston 69 Schizoaffective Disorder 70 NPD Diagnosis 72 Dialectical behavioral therapy 73 Analysis: Mental-healthcare diagnostic practices 76 Invocation 81 Intervention 82 Memory House 83 The Lewis Family 84 Sheila 84 Deidra 87 Meaghan 88 Brian 88 Marge 88 Stephan 89 Todd 89 Plea for help 90 ED Therapy 91 Chapter IV 93 Bomb Shelter 94 Celina 95 Spaceship Odysseus 97 Implantation 98 Behavioral Health Ward I 99 Discontent and Negligence 103 Pain and Suffering Journal 106 Regimen 107 Resistance 108 Siren 109 Breakthrough 110 Therapeutic Exercise 111 Pain and Suffering Journal 111 Clairvoyance 112 Valley of Death 113 My Enemies 114 Deadly Persistence 115 Chapter V 116 Communing with the gods 116 We are the Gods 119 Analysis: System Maturity 120 Analysis: Passage into a Web-of-belief 120 Analysis: Phases 120 Druids 122 The Contest of Life 122 Aristotelianism synthesized with Naturalism 123 Nature and Kinds 123 Revelations 124 New Ages 124 Time Space 126 Telepathy 127 Hummingbirds 128 Deification 128 Ascending the Steps 130 Phenomenology in Motion 132 Sacrifice 132 Driver’s License 133 Druid Circle 134 Druid Marriage 134 Athena 135 Pied Piper 135 Harry Potter Children 136 The Pegases 137 Pan and the Pegases 140 Diana 141 Gladiatorial Combat 143 Ritual 145 “…Roger that…” 147 Proconsuls 149 Reincarnation Build up and Break Down 150 Retribution 152 Transmissions 152 Choice 152 Bethlehem 154 Pilgrimage 155 Hypnotic Knots 158 Satan the God 160 Satan, the Sultan 160 Satan the Recluse 162 PsyDrifters 162 Origin Myth of Illuminati 163 Illuminati 165 Harold 168 Vampiracy 169 Marriage 171 Evolutionary Reincarnation Biology 172 Celebrity 172 An Earlier Time 173 Stoning 173 Human Justice 174 Origin Myth of Psychopathy 175 Saturn Fuel Supply 177 Ramesses 178 Game of Houses 179 Placebo 180 Exorcism of Satan 181 Salt Charge 181 Broadcasting from Headquarters 187 Disclosure 188 Ensnarement 189 Entrapment 190 Black Ball 190 Illuminati Reserves 192 Obamas 193 Abstinence 194 Francis 194 Illuminati at Night 195 Opposite Sex 197 Hanging Gardens 200 Incompetence 201 Chapter VI 202 Reintegration 202 Hells for Meaghan Lewis 206 Meaghan Lewis’ Weaker Version of Hell 207 Meaghan Lewis’ Stronger Version of Hell 207 Betrayal 208 Dissipation 208 Reintegration 210 OK Cupid 211 Google Services 212 Conclusion 214 Bibliography 216 Sandbox 216 Southwestern Oregon Community College 216 Black Mold 217 Orientation 218 The Little Dweebs 218 Ghosts from the Past 220 Psychoanalysis 221 Enslavement 221 Interrogation 221 Mind Control 223 A forceful attempt to hypnotize 225 Pagan Virtue 225 Proof of Polytheism 226 Sidewalks 226 Undercut Overcut 227 A Rounded Childhood 227